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Today is May 22, 2014 - I wish this date never existed because 4 yrs ago I sat in an OR room with family at 4am while Nicky had a temp shunt placed .....
People ask how are you, where are you? You don't answer.... It's because I can't so forgive me I'm struggling between a new Facebook
The twins turned 8 months old on may 11th I just didn't see a reason to be happy .... they beat the 8 month curse their brother had .... and it seemed off.
It will be 12 weeks this Sunday since I held my son, I'm broken .... Never the same .... Feel so far away, I visit him and still feel alone..... I am human .... I try to shut it off but this void is unbearable. he has somehow managed to play the song, ALL OF ME everytime I enter or leave him ...
My husband is at times supportive, but it's short lived (grief is hard!) - he can somehow
Nicky,
I promise to not stop what I started and I know we will stop this from happening again my sweetest love of all my life. I pledge to you my eternal love and the boxing gloves won't come off until this personal fight is done .....your Momma won't stop till we fix this baby.....
All my love to you my precious boy!
Nickybear's Momma
For those of you that still follow thank you ..... You have no idea how much energy I keep putting into this and will - Nicky did not deserve this......NO CHILD DOES .... Danny Thomas the founder of St Jude would be so ashamed of the production of a true labor of love has turned into .... its not what he would want and the truth will be exposed ....